Well, for a week anyway.
It's the second week of the Easter holidays, which means that Lil Monster is visiting with her dad for the week. Which means, Wheelz and I are free for the week!
I love my little sister. Let me just make that clear, right from the off. I love my little sister, with a depth that floors me sometimes.
But she is a very high maintenance, highly emotional teenager, who can be utterly exhausting to be around. Therefore, sometimes, I'm glad that she goes for a few days, because it gives me the chance to recuperate.
It doesn't help that I've been struggling with my anxiety recently, and not sleeping very well as a result. I'm sure lots of people can attest to the fact that little sleep generally means little patience.
It also doesn't help that Lil Monster pretty much always regresses with her behaviour in the days leading up to visiting her father. A few conversations this week have brought a few things to light, which have helped me make a bit more sense of things. But the fact remains that, for a week or so before she goes, Wheelz and I are treated to excessive moodiness, tantrums, shouting and more-than-expected belligerence. It can be tough to deal with.
So Wheelz and I are trying to make the most of the week of respite. The funny thing is, and this happens virtually every time, we usually wind up with one or both of us ill during her time away. It's like our bodies stay on high alert whilst she's around, and then just give in and crash when she goes away. She left on Saturday. Since then, I've been struggling to sleep, and feeling more tired and anxious than usual. Wheelz has been suffering from palpitations that nearly sent us to A&E on Sunday night, as well as a persistent migraine.
It sucks, but it's our reality.
Usually, we don't make any concrete plans for this week. We've learned by now that it doesn't work for us.
Instead, we'll just make the most of the peace and quiet that comes from having a teenager free home!
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