You didn't really think I was going to be able to blog constantly did you? I did think about it, but I went down with a cold and a severe case of sloth-city, and therefore no blogging.
I had my CPAP review at the beginning of March. Good news? I used to stop breathing 89 times per hour when sleeping. Yeah, you read that right - 89 times per hour 😨😨😨 Now, its more like 4 - 5 times per hour (anything less than 5 is considered normal). They want me to get a better sleep pattern but are happy with my progress and my appointments are now patient led - basically, they don't call me, I call them if I need anything.
Bad news? I got on their scales expecting to see a drop. The last time I was weighed there, I was 182 kgs - that was in March 2017. When I started keto, I was around the same (so I believed). This time their scales said 191 kgs (including my boots - that's important, honest). So I had put on nearly 10 kgs in a year. I was horrified. Terrified. Sad af. Poor Stripes had to comfort me whilst the nurse I was seeing tried to figure out how to make me feel better (it could be worse, you know now so you can do something about it, etc etc).
We left the appointment and I had to put a smile on my face as Lil Monster was with us, as well as a friend, and we were off to see Black Panther (go see it - life-changing, Wakanda Forever). Loved the movie - had a great time - got home and basically curled up in bed and sobbed like a child. I think I actually cried myself to sleep, that's how sad I was feeling.
I've been following keto since the beginning of January. I think I've had a couple of slips - (I attacked Stripes for a chocolate digestive last week, it wasn't pretty but it tasted lovely) - and I had some baileys in my hot chocolate one night last week. But apart from that, I've been a good girl. No bread, potatoes, pasta, rice since the beginning of January. Spinach is my vegetable of choice. Water. Atkins bars.
Now it could be the Atkins bars - one per day as a treat since I gave up cream cheese cheesecake as I was close to over-dosing on it and I found it too moreish. They fitted into my macros - I was watching YouTube videos and joining keto groups on facebook and reading feverishly to see what I could do to make things work better. But the scales don't agree.
I've weighed myself twice since that CPAP review, and each time I've put weight on. We're not even sure it's physically possible and are seriously considering that the scales might say they can weigh that high, but they can't cope. But I don't feel smaller, don't look smaller, my clothes don't fit better.
So it looks like keto isn't working for me. Or maybe I'm not doing keto the right way. Either way, it's been two months and I've seen zero weight loss. So time for a change.
Stripes and I had a chat and I've decided to give VLCD another try. I was successful on the Cambridge Diet about 14 years ago - lost 100 lbs - but life got in the way in the form of my unsupportive spouse, financial devastation, physical problems - and the weight crept back on.
I've been watching YouTube videos to see people's experiences - to see if things have changed; and I've been surfing the internet to find the cheapest way to follow the plan. I've found a deal on Exante products, so have ordered 25 days worth of products and once they arrive, I will slide from keto into meal replacements. I want to stick to it for at least one month - if it's working, maybe I'll just keep going.
Terrified in case it doesn't work - haven't heard anything back from the Dr's surgery or the weight loss clinic. Terrified in case it does work - it was a mind-f*ck losing all that weight all those years ago. And maybe, tentatively hopeful?
Maybe you'll hear more from me as I go through this. No promises though.
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