Happy New Year!

As the title starts, Happy New Year to anyone reading this. We've somehow made it to 2018.

I know I'm a little late in posting this- technical issues, family shit. Same old.
This will probably only be a short post.
As the clock passed midnight, Wheelz, Lil Monster and I asked one another, what are your resolutions for this year? What are you aiming to do?

Life has taught me not to make any firm resolutions. They don't seem to work out. The universe has an uncanny way of stepping in and messing things up. But I have made a few small resolutions, a few small personal goals that I'm going to try and keep up this year.

1. Write more. Whether it's on here, or in a diary, or recreationally. I'm going to try and make time to sit down and write at least once a week. There's something cathartic about letting words fill a page. It feels like unloading, like letting things go. Even if there's nothing special, or new, or important about what I'm writing. It's just good to let things out of my head.

2. Talk to people, about how I'm feeling. The day after Boxing Day, my lovely Aunt offered to give me a lift home. She's in a similar situation to me with regards to Lil Monster. It was the first time in a while that I've had a chance to talk to someone openly, about my thoughts and feelings, without feeling like I had to censor myself. She told me to get in touch with her, if ever I wanted to chat, or a distraction. I realised that I don't really talk to anyone about my innermost thoughts. I'm not sure if that's because some of them feel too toxic to let out, or if it's because I don't want to burden them. But I ought to talk more, and let people listen, and help. Which leads me onto my next...

3. Accept help. I don't like feeling indebted to people, which is how I generally end up feeling if I accept help from them. The aforementioned lovely Aunt offered to give me a lift, and I felt weird about it and sent her petrol money afterwards. She told me there wasn't any need. Why can't I accept help from others? Is it because I want to feel like I've got a handle on everything? I don't know. But there isn't anything wrong with accepting help. In fact, if I was offering advice to someone else in my position, I'd tell them to take all the help they could get! I'm going to try, this year, to take my own advice a little bit more.

There are other things that I'll probably try and do this year. Wheelz and I are going to attempt soap making this year, as well as experimenting with some fun new keto recipes.
2018, watch out!